I'm wide awake. | Reviewer: Paige J. | 6/18/12
This song, to me is so beautiful. Katy's lyrics are clearly her realizing her mistake of falling in love with the wrong person. And you know what? I can relate. This song is perfect for me.
"Wish I knew then, what I know now. Wouldn't dive in, wouldn't bow down. Gravity hurts, you made it so sweet. Till I woke up on the concrete."
Wow. Uh, these lyrics are spot-on. I mean, yes. I was with a guy blahblahblah, bet you've heard that one before. Except this guy was hated by my family, my friends, and yet... I kept after him. I didn't stop. I thought he liked me, no actually. Let's be real, I thought he loved me.
But he used me.
And I knew it was that too. Yet, I liked him so much I went with it. He knew how to make me feel good, and he knew how to put me down enough that he was the hero when he brought me back up.
It was just one big, stupid game.
Until one day my parents put a stop to it. They found out. And they went into my Facebook, emails, text, and facetime and removed and blocked him from all. He moved, so I didn't know where he lived or if his home phone would even be the same anymore.
I hated them.
I continued sneaking phone calls to him when I could, telling them it was my best friend.
And then he started liking other people. He said he would still gladly have me though. Then he told me he never wanted to date me. He just kissed me in February and started everything over because he thought I wanted him as much as he wanted me.
And that was when I realized... we were never meant to be. My parents actually did me a favor. Now.. I listen to this song, and belt out the lyrics, because I know exactly what it feels like.
He wasn't worth the trouble, the deceit.
And God knows, I would've happily continued being an idiot with him if they hadn't stopped it.
I don't need him.
I let go.
End of fairytale.
I'm wide awake.